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Quarter Life Crisis

by Sophia Dove

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Quarter Life Crisis 03:08
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Standing in my childhood mirror, I seem taller but I know I’m still the same height as when I got my ears pierced, gritting my teeth through the sharp pain And why is my room so much colder now that I’m older? I remember every sweater in the closet like it’s a locket I cut the picture in a heart shape [Chorus:] Now I’m sitting in this bed that’s not the one I grew up in Feels something like a quarter life crisis Now my life is gone Wanna tiptoe down the hall through the dark so my mom can fight all of the monsters right off, but they don’t want protection, they want self-reflection and I’m lost between the linen closet and the bathroom The sad gloom will catch up to us pretty damn soon I have to move on [Chorus] All these pictures on the wall of someone happy, a past me Now everything’s like something from a bad dream This can’t be all My varsity letter and dreams I’d be better wasted on whatever this became I wanted to make it, I can’t even fake it Oh, what a shame it went this way [Chorus] Standing in my childhood mirror, I seem taller
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Twenties 03:39
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I miss being young, getting drunk in my dorm room, staring at myself in the mirror like I’m brand new, feeling like I figured it out, nothing to prove, unafraid of time Everything was worth all the work that I put in I could get away with behaviors I shouldn’t Always found a way to regain fumbled footing like my life was mine, [Chorus:] Now everybody’s counting on me, betting all they’ve got on my roaring twenties but I’m waking up from the dream I’m afraid of my age, am I wasting my twenties? Am I wasting my twenties? Back when I was chasing my dreams in the daytime it seemed like the path that I had was a straight line Everything I did could be pinned as a good try, like I had a chance Like my performance of my age wasn’t strange, wasn’t different, didn’t go astray from the way they predicted I’d be living my life Felt like I was getting it right [Chorus] What if I’m not ready to be anything they said would be better for me? What if this is what I need? I’m afraid if I wait I’ll be wasting my twenties Am I wasting my twenties? Feeling the weight over my age starting to break my hope down Would I be making a mistake to slow down? Everybody’s counting on me, betting all they’ve got on my youthful plenty but I’m waking up from the dream I’m afraid of my age, am I wasting my twenties? I won’t be anything they said would be better for me What if this is what I need? I’m afraid if I wait I’ll be wasting my twenties I’ll be wasting my twenties
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Can't Just Be Ok 04:49
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I’ve been cutting out everything hoping my suffering would end No more coffee or partying, taking up jogging again Monitoring my screen time and I hate to report that I haven’t been cured I’ve been paying attention to everything on the news for once Thought that if I knew everything, I’d control anything, but that was dumb Started burning all my time til I thought it was done but it’s only round one [Chorus:] They’re telling me that it’s gonna hurt, it’s gonna take effort it’s gonna get worse before it gets better but I just don’t wanna wait to be not in pain All this time braving the weather It feels like it’s been raining forever And I try and try, I can’t get dry I don’t know why I can’t just be ok I can’t just be ok I’ve been watching the same old show 20 times in a row for fun Rice-A-Roni and sweatpants, cancelling my plans with everyone Keep on looking for bright sides and I’m coming up short Always stuck in the storm [Chorus] I can’t just be ok Try to keep my head up high, but I can barely see the sky Was it ever easy? Am I romanticizing how the sun felt on my skin, all the fresh air I breathed in? If I said that this will end, would I be fantasizing? They’re telling me that it’s gonna hurt, it’s gonna take effort it’s gonna get worse before it gets better but I just don’t wanna wait to be not in pain (I just can’t wait) All this time braving the weather It feels like it’s been raining forever And I try and try, I can’t get dry (I try, I try) I don’t know why I can’t just be ok I can’t just be ok (I try and try, I can’t get dry, I don’t know why) I can’t just be ok (I try and try, I can’t get dry, I don’t know why) I can’t just be ok
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Heroes 04:04
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I thought I was a danger to society Decided I could trust no one besides me But I know now I don’t have to be alone now Took on all the weight from off their shoulders Didn’t tell a soul when mine were overworked But now I’ve learned I just have to make myself heard [Chorus:] Everybody says “ask for help, ask for help” and I thought I was too strong for that I didn’t tell and then I felt bad Silly me, I couldn’t see that all I needed to do was lean on the people who I’ve had lean on me too When things got tough, I tried to muscle through it cus that was how I saw my heroes do it and it worked out But how can I be sure now? Looked into the mirror and I didn’t recognize my face So obsessed with being helpful, I forgot I take up space Watched myself turn into nothing, overwhelmed when I feel something Tell myself to just keep running and running [Chorus] Isolating myself making myself crazy, find some safety Make myself believe I’m all I got Count the hours, sweet turns sour They don’t bother wilted flowers Bury be alive and I keep screaming that I’m fine Until I asked for help It was bad I couldn’t see all I needed to do was lean on the people who I’ve had lean on me Ask for help, ask for help, ask for help (I thought I was too strong for that) Ask for help, ask for help, ask for help (I didn’t wanna feel so bad) Ask for help, ask for help, ask for help (I’m doing everything I can) Ask for help, ask for help, ask for help
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Keep You Close 04:54
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Sitting here with my fear on my sleeve Didn’t mean it to seem so obviously something I’ve been carrying with me Thought that I’d organized every step on the road to my own success and then, the world crumbled underneath my feet and I survived, but at what cost? I walk the line of love and loss and all the time you’re still the want I need [Chorus:] Maybe when tomorrow comes, we’ll wake up and watch the sun burn out, cus honestly, who knows? Nothing seems to be ok, but you feel good, you feel safe and I am gonna keep you close I’ve been blaming myself for too long Bore the weight of the world’s every wrong then saw that you’ve been standing with me all along Every mountain and hill that I climbed you were two steps ahead by my side with a first aid kit for if I should ever fall The road is rough and we’re not through but look at what we’ve gotten to Is this enough to beat my tragic flaw? [Chorus] Can I hold onto this, or will I drop it like I did with everything else? Don’t wanna distance you the way I do I just want you, and I could use some help Maybe when tomorrow comes, we’ll wake up and watch the sun burn out, who knows? Nothing seems to be ok, but you feel good, you feel safe and I am gonna keep you close [Chorus] I’m gonna keep you close Oooo
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Can It Be You? 04:00
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Maybe it’s gonna be ok Maybe the sun’ll shine one day Maybe we’ll look around and say “We made it out” Maybe the sky’ll be bright blue Maybe each day will feel brand new I know I’ll stand right beside you through every doubt And even when it’s said and done I’ll keep on fighting for your love cus every time I think I’m done I come back to you [Chorus:] And I hope that you won’t get tired of me, I’m sure that I’m exhausting But you make me feel safe and I’m gonna need someone to hold onto, can it be you? Can it be you? Maybe there’s rust around my bones Maybe I’ve outgrown my clothes Somehow you always seem to know just what to do Maybe now everything has changed Maybe we’ll never be the same But at least every single day I still wake up to you And even when the world’s on fire you hold my hand til we expire You’ve always been my true desire I don’t want to lose [Chorus] Your arms are worn and weary There’s so much that they carry I hate to add another burden to your load And as my whole world shatters you are all that matters and I’m so scared of living through this on my own And I hope that you won’t get tired of me, I know that I’m exhausting But you make me feel safe and I’m gonna need something to hold onto, can it be you?

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I wrote this record at a time when I felt like my life wasn't going how I expected it to. The years that everyone told me would be the best of my life didn't feel that way, and I was nervous about what that meant for my future. Writing these songs helped me express the frustrations, fears, and breakthroughs involved with growing into myself, and I feel so lucky to share this journey with you now.

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released May 28, 2021

Written, performed, recorded, produced, mixed, and mastered by Sophia Jozwiak. Additional mixing and mastering consultation by Chris Scales.

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